Omg can you believe it's August?? already??! I'm so excited! I can't wait to experience all the seasons in our new home! :D Anyways, onto the food stuffs...
yesterday after breakfast I had:
2 pieces toast with poached egg
Cream of spinach soup
baby carrots
Apple
Dinner at inlaws: Roasted pepper pasta salad, potato salad, brocolli slaw, corn on the cob, and ribs. (there was bread there too, but I passed on it) I had dessert too. Turtle cheesecake, and a scoop of icecream. I shouldn't have done it, but I won't deny that I had it! However, looking back on it, it really didn't seem worth it... :( I think I'll pass on it next time. I had 2 pieces of ribs, but seconds on nothing else. I didn't pile my plate high either, and I tried to eat slowly. For once I think I was the last person finished eating! :D
Today:
Breakfast of shredded wheat and bran cereal, with almond milk.
Coffee
Given that we went to the inlaws yesterday for supper, we had no opportunity to go grocery shopping. So, once again I will be having soup for lunch from work. Oh well, at least it's soup! Also, I would like to mention that there was really yummy looking cake on the table at work for the better part of the day. I didn't touch it. Not once! I will take this moment to pat myself on the back. :D I notice that when I have to write down everything I eat, I'm a little more conscious of what I put in my mouth. I think "is it worth it?? do I really want to admit that I did that??" and it really helps. Here's hoping I can keep this up!
Sunday, August 1, 2010
Saturday, July 31, 2010
July 31st
Morning all! I just wanted to fill you in on my food for yesterday and this morning. :)
After I had posted, I had:
*2 Black Plums (yum)
*Dinner! Which consisted of : Flank steak marinated with Soy sauce, vinegar, honey, garlic powder, ground ginger and green onion, boiled red potatoes with dill, and mixed vegetables (carrots, brocolli and cauliflower)
*aaaaand I had dessert, but before you crucify me, you should know what it was. I had homemade rice pudding, made with 1% milk, sultana raisins, and SPLENDA. So it could've been worse. I shouldn't have made it, I shouldn't have had it, but there ya go.
*This morning for breakie, I've had a cup of coffee, and when I'm done this post I'm having a bowl of corn bran squares with almond milk.
Lunch is yet to be determined, because I haven't been grocery shopping yet, so I need to order lunch from work. I'm hoping it's some ordinary broth soup or a basic sandwich, but who knows till I get there.... dammit. lol
Have a fun day everyone!
After I had posted, I had:
*2 Black Plums (yum)
*Dinner! Which consisted of : Flank steak marinated with Soy sauce, vinegar, honey, garlic powder, ground ginger and green onion, boiled red potatoes with dill, and mixed vegetables (carrots, brocolli and cauliflower)
*aaaaand I had dessert, but before you crucify me, you should know what it was. I had homemade rice pudding, made with 1% milk, sultana raisins, and SPLENDA. So it could've been worse. I shouldn't have made it, I shouldn't have had it, but there ya go.
*This morning for breakie, I've had a cup of coffee, and when I'm done this post I'm having a bowl of corn bran squares with almond milk.
Lunch is yet to be determined, because I haven't been grocery shopping yet, so I need to order lunch from work. I'm hoping it's some ordinary broth soup or a basic sandwich, but who knows till I get there.... dammit. lol
Have a fun day everyone!
Friday, July 30, 2010
On my own
well, since I have been finished with The Biggest Loser program, I have been VERY self destructive. I've been eating whatever, drinking alcohol, and not exercising. My hip has been hurt since a fateful day at work when it popped, and really hasn't been the same since. It hurts all the time, and I haven't yet found an answer as what to do about it. A good and wise friend suggested I try glucosamine, so today I will be off to the pharmacy to make that purchase. (Glucosame Sulfate, because glucosamine chondroiten has shark fin in it... and I don't want anything to do with that.) So, today starting right this moment, I'm back ON the wagon. I don't have a food journal anymore, so I'm going to try (note TRY because I'm not the best at remembering to blog, but I'm really going to try hard) to write down everything I eat during the day here on my blog. So here goes for the day so far....
I have had:
A final word to anyone who knows of anyone else who is a larger size. I have been actively getting rid of my clothes. I have been selling off my clothing and scrubs for $5 each piece. Sizes available range between 1x and 3x, most scrubs are 2x. If you know of anyone who would like to look at or purchase some nice clothes that I can no longer use, it would be greatly appreciated by me if you would pass it along. Any money that I earn is going to purchase a Nintendo Wii, so I can use the Wii fit here in my living room. (For anyone that knows me well enough, knows that I enjoy playing games, and I enjoy beating that game! So a Wii fit seems like a good match for me.) I'm sure everyone knows how expensive that system is to purchase, so I'm attempting to raise the money by selling off my clothes from when I was heavier, so I can actively get thinner and more healthy! Also, anyone that knows US, would know that as my husband has epilepsy, this game system would not be used to play actual sit-down video games. This is for the Wii fit ONLY.
Anyway, as I have someone on their way over as we speak to purchase some clothing items, I must end my blog for today. Stay tuned for more menu-ing etc tomorrow. lol!
I have had:
- 1 cup of coffee with splenda and creamo
- no breakfast (I know, that's bad, but I have to admit it!)
- Greek style salad (green onions, tomatoes, green peppers, low calorie kraft vinagrette) and baked chicken (no oil, no seasoning, just baked as is)
- I will be having a granny smith apple also.
- For a snack later I will be having baby carrots.
- Dinner as of yet is undecided, as we may be having company over. I will post dinner tomorrow.
A final word to anyone who knows of anyone else who is a larger size. I have been actively getting rid of my clothes. I have been selling off my clothing and scrubs for $5 each piece. Sizes available range between 1x and 3x, most scrubs are 2x. If you know of anyone who would like to look at or purchase some nice clothes that I can no longer use, it would be greatly appreciated by me if you would pass it along. Any money that I earn is going to purchase a Nintendo Wii, so I can use the Wii fit here in my living room. (For anyone that knows me well enough, knows that I enjoy playing games, and I enjoy beating that game! So a Wii fit seems like a good match for me.) I'm sure everyone knows how expensive that system is to purchase, so I'm attempting to raise the money by selling off my clothes from when I was heavier, so I can actively get thinner and more healthy! Also, anyone that knows US, would know that as my husband has epilepsy, this game system would not be used to play actual sit-down video games. This is for the Wii fit ONLY.
Anyway, as I have someone on their way over as we speak to purchase some clothing items, I must end my blog for today. Stay tuned for more menu-ing etc tomorrow. lol!
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Mother's Day
Today is Mother's Day, which for me is a bittersweet holiday. I can celebrate for my Mother, the greatest Mother I know. She is my strength, my heart, my best friend. We didn't always have a good relationship, in fact for a time we had a horrible relationship, but it was my fault. She bore my wickedness, my swearing, my fighting, my screaming, my disobedience; and she still loved me. Without her I would be lost, because she has always helped me find my way. For my Mother: I love you Mom, more than ever, and I will even more tomorrow.
I said today was bittersweet, I suppose I should explain. Today marks my day of ultimate jealousy. My friends are all mothers. My sister-in-law is a mother. I am nothing. I may never be a mother, and it breaks my heart a little every day, but today is the day when I feel the most forlorn, because it shouts out loud what I may never be; a mother. I'm so happy for everyone else that gets to celebrate this day, to celebrate that they are strong, loving, powerful women with happy healthy children.... But deep down for me, I will be sad and suffer in silence, and I will be happy when this day is over, and I can forget what I may never be.
I said today was bittersweet, I suppose I should explain. Today marks my day of ultimate jealousy. My friends are all mothers. My sister-in-law is a mother. I am nothing. I may never be a mother, and it breaks my heart a little every day, but today is the day when I feel the most forlorn, because it shouts out loud what I may never be; a mother. I'm so happy for everyone else that gets to celebrate this day, to celebrate that they are strong, loving, powerful women with happy healthy children.... But deep down for me, I will be sad and suffer in silence, and I will be happy when this day is over, and I can forget what I may never be.
Thursday, May 6, 2010
The many sides of me
Well first things first, I lied, I didn't post as I said I would, I'm sorry, moving on. lol
I need to post in my blog more often, and not just for weight loss journey stuff. I have a lot going on in my mind from day to day, and a lot going on in my life, and I think it will be therapeutic for me to write it down. I might not write consistently, but I'm going to try. First I will say a word or two on my weight loss. To date I have now lost 40.5 lbs, and am down to a size 16 from a 22. Yay me! I'm not satisfied, but I'm still working on it so we will see what happens.
Next I want to point out, that for the first time in my life I'm being true to myself. I don't wear what people want me to wear, I don't do what people want me to do, and I don't act the way people want me to act. Bryce and I now own our first home, and we are happily decorating and renovating it exactly the way we want. It has nothing to do with trends or fads or what other people think it should look like, it's got everything to do with what makes us happy and what makes us comfortable. Don't get me wrong, I've tried on more than a few hats in my life, seeing what fit best for me. I was once really an outcast and didn't fit anywhere, so I tried being a little bit punky (and failed miserably), I tried being goth and apathetic (also failed miserably), I played soccer for awhile and tried out the jock type role (which REALLY didn't last), I went preppy after that, and then went hardcore redneck country bumpkin. What a mix huh? I have finally settled into a role all my own. I am a country girl at heart, but I no longer go hunting and skin/butcher animals. I do listen to country music, but mostly just the new stuff. I can take care of myself and others pretty well, but I still need the love of my family and my husband every day.
I don't proclaim to be perfect, or even close for that matter; but I'm happy. I'm pretty near to where I want to be in my life right now. There are naturally a few things missing, but there always will be I imagine. But I have a career that I love, a home that I love, and a husband I desperately adore. I have friends I couldn't live without, and a family that is without a doubt my rock in this sea of chaos.
Sometimes I wonder what my life would be like if I hadn't found my stable ground, if I hadn't found MY place in my own life. I see others sometimes that still don't have a grasp on who they are and what they stand for, and I wonder what life has in store for them. I know some are meant to be rolling stones, moving from one idea and though to another, but eventually even a rolling stone finds it's resting place.
Today my mind is jumping from one thing to the next, and I can't find something solid to grasp onto. It seems like I have so much going on, that I have no time to rest and enjoy what I have. If I'm not going to the gym, preparing daily meals, getting in my cardio, cleaning the house, fixing up the house, doing laundry, talking to family or spending time with friends, I have very little time to just sit and enjoy the quiet and be alone with my own thoughts. Maybe that should be my goal for my next days off. Take an entire day just for me to sort things out in my mind, and get some well deserved mental R & R. Does anyone else feel this way?? Am I the only one to feel like my life is running away without me?
I need to post in my blog more often, and not just for weight loss journey stuff. I have a lot going on in my mind from day to day, and a lot going on in my life, and I think it will be therapeutic for me to write it down. I might not write consistently, but I'm going to try. First I will say a word or two on my weight loss. To date I have now lost 40.5 lbs, and am down to a size 16 from a 22. Yay me! I'm not satisfied, but I'm still working on it so we will see what happens.
Next I want to point out, that for the first time in my life I'm being true to myself. I don't wear what people want me to wear, I don't do what people want me to do, and I don't act the way people want me to act. Bryce and I now own our first home, and we are happily decorating and renovating it exactly the way we want. It has nothing to do with trends or fads or what other people think it should look like, it's got everything to do with what makes us happy and what makes us comfortable. Don't get me wrong, I've tried on more than a few hats in my life, seeing what fit best for me. I was once really an outcast and didn't fit anywhere, so I tried being a little bit punky (and failed miserably), I tried being goth and apathetic (also failed miserably), I played soccer for awhile and tried out the jock type role (which REALLY didn't last), I went preppy after that, and then went hardcore redneck country bumpkin. What a mix huh? I have finally settled into a role all my own. I am a country girl at heart, but I no longer go hunting and skin/butcher animals. I do listen to country music, but mostly just the new stuff. I can take care of myself and others pretty well, but I still need the love of my family and my husband every day.
I don't proclaim to be perfect, or even close for that matter; but I'm happy. I'm pretty near to where I want to be in my life right now. There are naturally a few things missing, but there always will be I imagine. But I have a career that I love, a home that I love, and a husband I desperately adore. I have friends I couldn't live without, and a family that is without a doubt my rock in this sea of chaos.
Sometimes I wonder what my life would be like if I hadn't found my stable ground, if I hadn't found MY place in my own life. I see others sometimes that still don't have a grasp on who they are and what they stand for, and I wonder what life has in store for them. I know some are meant to be rolling stones, moving from one idea and though to another, but eventually even a rolling stone finds it's resting place.
Today my mind is jumping from one thing to the next, and I can't find something solid to grasp onto. It seems like I have so much going on, that I have no time to rest and enjoy what I have. If I'm not going to the gym, preparing daily meals, getting in my cardio, cleaning the house, fixing up the house, doing laundry, talking to family or spending time with friends, I have very little time to just sit and enjoy the quiet and be alone with my own thoughts. Maybe that should be my goal for my next days off. Take an entire day just for me to sort things out in my mind, and get some well deserved mental R & R. Does anyone else feel this way?? Am I the only one to feel like my life is running away without me?
Saturday, April 3, 2010
The end of chapter 1...
Well here I am and I have officially completed Nanaimo's Biggest Loser. I started at 263.5 lbs, with an amazing 112.3 lbs of body fat to lose. I was 42.7% body fat, which is insane. My measurements were as follows in inches:
Chest - 50
Waist - 49
Hips - 51
Arms - 16.5
Legs - 30
Calves - 18
Once upon a time I had a lovely hourglass figure. I was a plus size, but I had an hourglass figure. That shape 3 months ago was completely gone. I'm not there yet, but I'm definitely making headway.
I have been pushed, bruised, exhausted and run completely ragged, but it has been worth it. So much so that I have signed up for The Last 20 Pounds Bootcamp. Once again I will be tortured and most days totally exhausted, but in the end I truly believe I will be in the best physical condition I have ever been in.
As of today, my stats have changed. I am down to 229 lbs. I have lost 34.5 pounds on the scale. I now have 58.3 lbs of body fat to lose. Almost half of what I was starting with. My percentage of body fat has gone down significantly, to 25.4% body fat. I have lost a grand total to date, of 54 pounds of body fat. 54 POUNDS! That's insane! And, to make me even happier, my water weight has started to come off. Yay! I'm due for another 20 lbs of water weight to just fall off. According to Joanna it should come off quite quickly, so I'm very much looking forward to that.
My new measurements don't seem that different, but you have to remember that the difference is in INCHES.
Chest - 46 (down 4 inches)
Waist - 43 (down 6 inches)
Hips - 48.5 (down 2.5 inches)
Arms - 13.5 (down 3 inches each arm)
Legs - 26.75 (down 3.25 inches)
Calves - 17 (down 1 inch)
So altogether I have lost 19.75 inches off my body. I have lost 54 lbs of fat, 19.75 inches, and 1 1/2 pant sizes. (hehe I had to add the last one) I've also gone down 2 underwear sizes, and 2 shirt sizes. (from 3x to 1x)
So, I will continue to post through my next program, and I will try to post pictures if we actually get them. The before pictures wound up being "corrupted" on the photographer's computer, so we most likely will never receive them. Sad? Definitely. But there's nothing to really be done about it. Hopefully I'll be able to purchase myself a hot outfit and post pictures of how I look now... and hopefully that will be enough for you all. lol if it's not, I'm sorry, but I really can't help that! Anyways, thanks for reading and sharing my journey with me, and stayed tuned for the next chapter in my weight loss story! Love you all!
Chest - 50
Waist - 49
Hips - 51
Arms - 16.5
Legs - 30
Calves - 18
Once upon a time I had a lovely hourglass figure. I was a plus size, but I had an hourglass figure. That shape 3 months ago was completely gone. I'm not there yet, but I'm definitely making headway.
I have been pushed, bruised, exhausted and run completely ragged, but it has been worth it. So much so that I have signed up for The Last 20 Pounds Bootcamp. Once again I will be tortured and most days totally exhausted, but in the end I truly believe I will be in the best physical condition I have ever been in.
As of today, my stats have changed. I am down to 229 lbs. I have lost 34.5 pounds on the scale. I now have 58.3 lbs of body fat to lose. Almost half of what I was starting with. My percentage of body fat has gone down significantly, to 25.4% body fat. I have lost a grand total to date, of 54 pounds of body fat. 54 POUNDS! That's insane! And, to make me even happier, my water weight has started to come off. Yay! I'm due for another 20 lbs of water weight to just fall off. According to Joanna it should come off quite quickly, so I'm very much looking forward to that.
My new measurements don't seem that different, but you have to remember that the difference is in INCHES.
Chest - 46 (down 4 inches)
Waist - 43 (down 6 inches)
Hips - 48.5 (down 2.5 inches)
Arms - 13.5 (down 3 inches each arm)
Legs - 26.75 (down 3.25 inches)
Calves - 17 (down 1 inch)
So altogether I have lost 19.75 inches off my body. I have lost 54 lbs of fat, 19.75 inches, and 1 1/2 pant sizes. (hehe I had to add the last one) I've also gone down 2 underwear sizes, and 2 shirt sizes. (from 3x to 1x)
So, I will continue to post through my next program, and I will try to post pictures if we actually get them. The before pictures wound up being "corrupted" on the photographer's computer, so we most likely will never receive them. Sad? Definitely. But there's nothing to really be done about it. Hopefully I'll be able to purchase myself a hot outfit and post pictures of how I look now... and hopefully that will be enough for you all. lol if it's not, I'm sorry, but I really can't help that! Anyways, thanks for reading and sharing my journey with me, and stayed tuned for the next chapter in my weight loss story! Love you all!
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Bad Blogger!! BAD!!
lol! I guess I lied on my last post, which means I haven't posted since. hahaha! That's ok though, I've had a couple of crazy weeks so I'm willing to forgive myself. I can't really change if you will or not, but I guess that would be up to you! Well, 3 weeks ago, I weighed in and lost 6.5 lbs in one week. However, I was violently ill the week before, so honestly I wasn't that excited about my loss. I knew I'd pay for it later, and I did. I lost 0 lbs the following week. Surprise surprise! But that's ok, because it keeps with my average of 3 lbs per week. I kind of like having an average, it makes my losses dependable. Last week I lost a total of 4 lbs, which brought my grand total up to 30.5 lbs lost! And one of the best parts is, that I have one more weigh in to go!
Sad news is, I didn't win. I didn't even place in the top 20... but you know what?? That's ok. I feel like I've won. I've lost more weight than I ever have before in my life, and I did it properly. I've accomplished something I never have before, so that makes me feel very accomplished and satisfied. But not too much ;) In fact I've signed up for the Last 20 Pounds Bootcamp, which is the next installation in the Biggest Loser Bootcamps. I will try to post a little more frequently with this bootcamp, as I have no doubt that this one is going to be quite a bit more difficult and straining.
A couple of weeks back, I had a bit of a rough patch. After I recovered from my stomach flu, I lost all ambition and drive to continue. I didn't want to go to the gym anymore, I didn't want to do diet plans and scheduled meals, I didn't want to give up any more of my time to this program. I was stressed, I was stuck, and I was unhappy. I think I just lost the drive that I had continuously going from the beginning. I had almost a week off of the gym and work, and my body and brain decided that it liked the time off. So, after a week of grumping and groaning, I managed to get my gym mojo back. Which then allowed for my lovely loss of 4 lbs this past week.
I really should have posted all this stuff earlier as it had happened, but for some reason I think I just needed to sort through everything in my head, before writing it all out on my blog. So again I apologize for the lack of posting, but I think I have everything sorted out at this point. We're almost done, and I couldn't be happier! But at the same time I look forward to some even bigger losses in my next program!
Sad news is, I didn't win. I didn't even place in the top 20... but you know what?? That's ok. I feel like I've won. I've lost more weight than I ever have before in my life, and I did it properly. I've accomplished something I never have before, so that makes me feel very accomplished and satisfied. But not too much ;) In fact I've signed up for the Last 20 Pounds Bootcamp, which is the next installation in the Biggest Loser Bootcamps. I will try to post a little more frequently with this bootcamp, as I have no doubt that this one is going to be quite a bit more difficult and straining.
A couple of weeks back, I had a bit of a rough patch. After I recovered from my stomach flu, I lost all ambition and drive to continue. I didn't want to go to the gym anymore, I didn't want to do diet plans and scheduled meals, I didn't want to give up any more of my time to this program. I was stressed, I was stuck, and I was unhappy. I think I just lost the drive that I had continuously going from the beginning. I had almost a week off of the gym and work, and my body and brain decided that it liked the time off. So, after a week of grumping and groaning, I managed to get my gym mojo back. Which then allowed for my lovely loss of 4 lbs this past week.
I really should have posted all this stuff earlier as it had happened, but for some reason I think I just needed to sort through everything in my head, before writing it all out on my blog. So again I apologize for the lack of posting, but I think I have everything sorted out at this point. We're almost done, and I couldn't be happier! But at the same time I look forward to some even bigger losses in my next program!
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